I wish someone had told me to stop being scared and just to live life a long time ago. Maybe they did, but I needed to learn it on my own. I always need to learn things on my own.
I’ve spent most of my life afraid of the “what ifs” – justifying myself with “can’ts” “What if I fail?” “What if people laugh at me?” “I can’t do that!” But, you know what? The “what ifs” do not matter and you do not know if you “can’t” do something if you don’t even try. I was being crippled by my fear. But, the thing about that is it wasn’t like I was actually crippled. I was perfectly able to try the things I longed to do. So, why not?
I guess something must have clicked in my head this year. I think maybe it was the empowerment I felt from the awesome women who are a part of Mamavation. I have started trying so many new things. Sometimes I’m scared and sometimes I’m not but I am always so happy that I tried. I am no longer sitting back and hearing about things that others are doing and thinking to myself, “how awesome, I wish I could do that.” Because, why can’t I?
I had always loved the idea of running but I always thought that I was not a runner but, I am a runner! In fact, I have participated in five 5Ks this year. Something I always wanted to do. I faced my fear of heights at an aerial adventure park. I have now been there twice. I even retried one of the courses that I was scared s***less on the first time I went! I went to a blogger meet up with a bunch of people I have never met before, even though I usually refer to myself as “shy” and “socially awkward”. (Okay, okay one of my Mamavation sista’s, Wendy was there. Thankfully!!) I’ve tried kayaking and I even jumped into 50 feet of water to go for a swim!
Now, there is event called Fitweek coming up in my area and they are offering a ton of fitness activities and classes for free! I signed up for Intro to Crossfit and Intro to Indoor Rock Climbing. Yeah, I never would have done that before. In fact, when I was at sleep away camp when I was younger there was a climbing wall. I ended up sobbing hysterically at the bottom of it when they tried to make me climb it. Now, I can’t wait crush that fear!
I have time for one more class during Fitweek, too. I’m trying to decide between Women’s Self Dense or Intro to Belly Dancing, which would you choose?
Have you ever faced a fear or are there any fears you would love to face? What is holding you back?